血拼+三年。。

三天两夜血拼的我，双脚已投诉的不像样了。。 哇！痛死了！
特别感谢提供我两夜住宿的mun女，和她的爸爸，还有哥哥~感谢他们的招待，真的令我很羞愧没给他们买手信。。谢谢你~

很痛快地血拼！很久没血拼了，我也很少有酱的机会。。此行让我破财，但同时也买到我要的东西。。所谓：人靠衣装。。包装自己好像成为了现实中必须做的事，结果欲望越多，烦恼越多，越不容易有满足感。。人啊~！

三年就酱过去了，真的眨眼就过了。。我的舍友也从此离开这，踏入社会大学了。虽然她个性直率、也很粗心大意， 可是以她那种速战速决的性格，她，一定会有一番作为的。舍友，你要加油哦！未来还在等着你去闯，要约闯约勇！还有，祝你早日找到一个能照顾你的人哦。。：P

很快的，我也要离开了。。。放假四个月，不知我能不能在此行找到我要的方向呢？

KIASU KIASI

Initially I got nothing to write on my blog.. Suddenly i think of the conversation between me and S about exam as below:

S: omg! today mission did not achieve..
Me: what mission?
S: study mission lo.... malas
Me: aiya... give u another 10days u also won't study finish de la...study until die meh..(i got a bit doubt when i type this sentence because it sound's familiar, macan is S told me before lo) today study, tomorrow forgot d...
S: yalo...hahaha... agree!
Me: actually we realise this thousand years ago but yet we still keep giving ourselves pressure on this matter.. (unbelievable that i will think this way actually)
S: no choice lo, kiasu and kiasi ma....

I still remember tat i am the kind of serious person in study matter. I always wanted to be a good student, good in manner, good in attitude, good in study as well.... I'm not a children from a rich family, I duwan my parent worried about me, i wanted to make my parent proud of me...  This is how i spent my 1/4 life to be a good child... Yes, i'm good in many's ppl view, my parent never worry bout me, i always reach their expectation...  Yes, i reach the goal to be a good child d, so? I think this is what most of the ppl outside there have done... like me.... There is nothing wrong to be a good child, dun get my words wrong... If i got this kind of child i think i will love him/her very much too.. as the child, u will feel lost some times.. like wat i feel ( not every ppl like me la) ..

Yes! I'm Lost! most of the time...I'm lost y i need to study?( although i'm not very pia la.. hahaha..) what i know that i was obliged to study.... besides study, there are many other things that we may try. I'm not dare to try, too many expectation put on me, too burden, feel like dying soon... I'm lost y am i  here at this moment... I never found the answer until i met a book.. Maybe i am being influence by tat book, but it really helps me a lot... It opened my view, a view from my heart. The book begins with road running : Everyone is running in their life, u do so. Have u ever think that y u want to run?  u are running, when ppl run faster than u, u will jealous; when u run faster than others, u will laugh at ppl and look down at them. U never think of the purpose of running , what u do is to follow others: ppl run u run. At the end of ur life, u still dunno y u wan to run. This is just a story to tell us to appreciate the every moment we had , enjoy and cherish it.

After finished my reading, i started to think what have i done ? study? besides study, playing? hahaha...  Suddenly the question pop out in my mind: y u want to study? y u choose law? for knowledge? or for an A, dent list?....  yes, i  realized that study is just a process of my life, a process eager for knowledge.. dun take result so seriously..there are many other things that i am not gonna to miss :p ( this is wat the most of ppl in FUU running for) So, no matter where am i, what am i doing, i will appreciate whatever i have experience with.. Result is not the final destination. It helps me rebuilt my inner character, i am no body, at the same time i can be some body, depends on my view, depends on who am i going to be. I am going to be a good student, at the same time i am ready to be myself as well...

The value i get from the book help me to put down a lot of things, study, friendship, fear, life... it widened the eyes of my heart and spirit.. So, dun be the one who kiasu kiasi d... kiasi a bit is good, u will gained from ur effort.. but kiasu is not good lo... kiasu will make depressed u, make u worried, stress and others negative impact.. maybe u will question whether this is one of the reason to avoid study hard.. But, my whole page here intended to tell u that beside study, u must enjoy life... dun push urself so hard, do according to ur ability... "no ppl is perfect" , takkan u wan to end ur life with a blank page? takkan u wan to spend ur one whole life to study, earn money and die~

kiasu kiasi is not a crime, but u will certainly lost the enjoyment of ur life, the purpose of ur life... u will not be the winner forever, u r not the king, u will face v failure one day, u will beaten down by others. Like the story, for sure there are many ppl run faster than u.. Enjoy life~

生日，生日快乐~

难以置信没有蛋糕的生日，没有庆祝的生日，考试的生日， 我竟然是那么的快乐~
12点钟起，短讯一则则的传进来，读着许久不见的朋友们的祝福，我的心情是多么的感激！贵在他们真的很有心祝福我，记得我的生日，准时简讯到。。还有些呢就打电话来报道！我的电话一年里也没有那么多的call，顿时觉得我好幸福哦！ 还有我的傻瓜coursemate，一个在videocall,一个在电话唱起生日歌来~乱水了一点，但是我却笑到见牙不见眼！！哈哈！当然少不了fb里满满的祝福~ 一声生日快乐，把我的心情都点亮了~

难以形容今天复杂的心情，考试和生日之间，我选择了快乐。如果天天能像今天酱那该多好~哈哈，想太多了。。 谢谢那些祝福我的朋友，谢谢roommate的特别礼物，谢谢我dear&parents 陪伴我过了个温馨的生日，谢谢上天让我来到这世界，谢谢我爸妈带我来这世界，养育我，照顾我~ 很感激一切的存在，世界可以是美好的~希望这世界更美好~还有，明天考试简单点，拜托~

不年轻了，但是还是要说：吴依涵，生日快乐！YOU have made my life~ 祝你早日找到人生目标而不是一味的跑~

空虚

今天刚刚才开始第一张paper,现在就觉得闷了。。 突然有空虚的感觉，不为什么，可能身体的某部分有空洞吧，心就刚好掉在哪儿，跳不起来。。
歌，拼命炸；还是找不到那心跳在那里。。。脑也懒得动，软趴趴在电脑前东张西望，无聊到极点了。。
写这篇，反映了我现在很闷，很no mood。。 天气冷冷的，或许是时候进入棉被里了。。

一个人的寂寞

 一个人吃饭，一个人听音乐，一个人check email，一个人读书。一个人，很闷。。 考试来了，皮绷紧一点，但是无聊的空气让我提不起劲来。更何况患上大伤风，鼻子要掉了，水怎样都流不干..
唉。。。没有味觉，人生更只剩下寂寞。

听新歌吧。。。考试愉快咯~